Shame be dammned. I am admitting to seeing one.
Much like any relationship, when the person who you have bonded the most with suddenly has to go away, you begin to miss that connection. Due to circumstances that I don’t wanna really get into here, I won’t be able to see her for another week or so.
I have others I can talk to, but I like the fact that I have someone who I can funnel my weirdness to, grind that weirdness to its essenence and get to the root of things. Other people usually go along with the ride while being either too nice to admit they don’t get the point or too afraid of losing the relationship by saying how they feel. Not having that for awhile feels a little jarring at the moment, but I’m not sure there is much of an alternative.
I could while things get ironed out with the therapist I have get an alternate therapist. The problem is, I’d have to get into the long process of finding one I like that vibes well with me and one that has evening/weekend hours given that I work a 9 to 5 job. I realize there’s talkspace, but I’d rather not take therapy via a chat line as it feels too impersonal for my tastes and seems even more expensive than regular threapy.
Having said all of this, I need to take this time to reflect on what I learned in therapy and get it together on my own while things get ironed out.